The final night

I'm pretty depressed - not going to lie. The one thing that keeps me going is that I know a few things...

1. I'm not going to starve
2. I'm eating better food - better for me and better for the animals
3. I am prepared. My freezer and fridge are full of good things.
4. I'm scared as heck...of failure and disobedience
5. One day at a time.

I'll report how it's going tomorrow and what I'm eating. I know...it's exciting!

Thoughts on Cold Turkey

Who doesn't like cold turkey? It's usually always great on the day after Thanksgiving as we all watch more football. However, it usually doesn't work for an eating plan or any kind of habit change. But...come Monday morning - I will be going cold turkey.

I watched Alicia Silverstone on Oprah the other day. She has gone total Vegan and was recommending certain foods, etc. I got a little excited as she was walking through Whole Foods finding great food to cook. The best thing she said was that eating Vegan makes your poop "wonderful". That my friends, is what I look forward to most and why going cold turkey will be worth it!

"Obedience Stinks"

What started out as kind of a funky Sunday (you know the kind...where you'd rather be anywhere else?) turned into a great (and spiritual) time for me personally. We looked at the story of Elijah and the widow in I Kings 17. My pastor said that one of his favorite parts of the story was when Elijah asked the widow to give him her son (who was dead). I think that is what God asks us to do - give him our issues, circumstances, bank accounts, diet issues, the IMPOSSIBLE and let him handle things. Why is such a beautiful concept so difficult to comprehend?

I'm not really an Old Testement lover - as you can understand by my blog's title, I'm really only into the red letters. However, there is value in understanding the God that was the OT.

We ended service with prayer stations - which I love. I wrote in the prayer journal "Obedience Stinks". Sorry, that's how I feel right now - with t-minus 6 days of eating whatever I want.

Thanks to Hillary for taking me to Olive Garden today. It was awesdome but I felt that I could not eat that again and be o.k. in light of all that's happened in the past few weeks.

Cleaning out the fridge

I'm slowly cleaning out the fridge/freezer. I should have taken a picture of the before/after look. I have enough dinners for all week - except for 2 nights and hopefully, those evenings will be covered with Olive Garden and pizza.

Starting small

Started small. Small starts. Baby steps. Whatever you want to call it - it's hard to get started on something this huge without first taking smaller steps. I want to get ready for 2/1/10 but I also do not want my system to flip out because I am not eating chicken McNuggets smothered in cheese sauce with a side of honey mustard dip. (I don't really eat that...but)

Yesterday I had a vegan breakfast. Two slices of soy toast with Smart Balance light - made with flax seed oil. It was good and filled me up. Today I had dried apricots and flax seed chips with homemade salsa. It's good and I'm satisfied. Breakfast is easy though - since I don't love it - I force myself to eat it otherwise I'll be crabby until lunch.

Tomorrow I will start my day with my normal mocha but have my Barista put in a small amount of soy...just to start. Small steps...

The blog is back.

I've decided to revamp the blog. I wanted to share the Vegan journey with friends and family. This is mainly for my own catharsis as well as accountability. I struggle with accountability because I live alone. Nobody will care that I cheat and Fergie certainly won't tell!

Preparations have begun. I bought soy yogurt - which is amazing. I bought some vegan bread, but then the BFF informed me that most Pillsbury crescent rolls are vegan and I just about died! Wonder bread is even vegan. There is certainly a difference between healthy vegan and unhealthy.

It's baby steps for the next 2 weeks - as 2 weeks from today the real deal happens.

Wish me luck.